LOA

L. O. A.

Law of Attraction.

I've come across this when I was wanting to make a change. When I got tired of all the bullshits that was happening around me. It was a breathe of fresh air. Admittedly I didnt really do a lot of research about it or something and like the things that I picked along the way, the idea drifted far from me. Although some randomness stayed with me. And I'm living in it.

Basically,  the idea was you can be whatever you wanna be. Your thoughts are who you are and who you will become. I've read a few books and listen to podcast and audiobooks. And It helped alot when struggling very hard to find myself and finally discovering what self-love really is.

2013 was the year of self-discovery and the laying of foundation of the life I wanted to live.    It was like so late, but I have always been a late bloomer so what the heck. Better late
than never. And as the saying goes, baby steps put you way ahead of people still stuck in thier own misery. It was amazing how you could achieve when you put your mind into it.  Although I didnt really reached every goal I set myself to accomplished this year. I still feel so grateful for every little things I did. Be it financially, emotionally, mentally, well physically it was a major failure but hey I just change my perception about it. Hahahaha..

Everyday, I manage to tell myself how lucky I am. How much love I have inside me, and how much more I can share it with other people. That my life is great and is getting better and better. And I can feel the changes, gradual changes. I have a very long to go especially with dealing with other people but I feel the patience is slowly building up again. I feel more tolerable of other people and I just hope they would feel the same way about me too. I feel kinder, gentler, maybe more loving. Though, my temper still gets the better of me.

Though I didnt reach my financial goal. It was a whole lot better than any year I can
remember. And I know im on my way to a place I wanna be. Slowly but surely. I have mishaps and I fall out of the wagon most of the time because of my emotion but I manage to go back to my path. And thats more important.

In love. Well, im still working to be that person I would fall inlove with. And im almost there. Im almost ready to throw myself out there. Well almost. Its only a matter of time before I stumbled upon someone I would gladly share a piece of myself with. But for now, im just perfecting myself, molding myself to be the lover I was before life fucked me over without the childishness and foolishness of youth. The innocence and utter bliss and pain of falling madly inlove with a person you are equal with. And its so exciting.

Life in general is really good, especially if you finally get a grip of yourself, when you take responsibility and controlling it and living the way you wanted to. Its priceless. Its precious. Every page, every picture,  every memory
makes life worth living.