im a creep

For some reason my little infatuation is growing. It feels so weird. I think i need to go out and meet people. I have not really think about what i feel for other people, but i guess when somebody keeps reminding you you like somebody unconsciously you think about it. My friends never do that, we tease and we annoy each other greatly but we never pushed each other like that. I find it annoying but it got me thinking now im stuck with this imaginary feeling. Feeling like im falling for someone i dont even know. Its creeping me out. And confusing my senses. Im laughing at myself im so silly. So this is how it feels like to be like desperate or something. hahahha. I dont really feel ugly oe unwanted. I know for sure im single by choice, but this infatuation makes me feel like a teenager crushing on somebody secretly, knowing the relationship wont go beyond my mind and my secret feeling. I keep thinking about this girl. A thousand miles  away. The feeling is so innocent and sweet. Foolishly Im enjoying it though. Am i turning into a creep? Well I hope not. But finding a person that fits someone from your dream is such a rare experience. Smart, beautiful and a good person inside out. I will relished it,  if only for a lil bit.